and life keeps on moving

So it is now the end of April. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. Lots of things have been going on. After a week of being sick and with terrible back pain I am finally on my way back to being me again. Thomas is off and away in San Diego. My little sister went to senior prom and next month will graduate from high school. My dad found out that after many long years he will finally be able to retire September 30, 2010 from the Army. Lots of crazy stuff.

Tonight it's just me hanging out at the house. I don't know why but lately it's just been weird to be at the house by myself. I try as hard as I can to stay away. The house just seems so empty right now. Thomas has been gone only 10 days so far and it already seems like forever. I think this time around I just don't want to get to comfortable in my routine while he is gone. When Thomas is away for a while it always feels so weird and just sad to get use to him being gone. Almost to the point where you forget even what it's like to have him home. You remember and wish it could be that way but I don't know. I'm just lonely right now I guess. And I guess it is one thing to have him off and away on a ship and another to have him just 1200 miles away in the states. Just far enough away.

I have been trying to get back into doing my bible study. For a while I just felt so disconnected from it all and not really getting anything. My mind would be everywhere and I just couldn't get myself to be still to get into the word. Today was good because I read in my study on peace. What stood out to me was about the Phil. 4 passage where it talks about do not be anxious about anything... in the study it said how the promise from the scripture is not being taken away form our anxious moments and trials but that God will give us peace that transcends all understanding to handle and live through those times. That really hit me. For a long time I thought if I give everything over to God and pray about them all he will deliver me from the and all will be done. He will take away the things that make me worry and be anxious. But it doesn't say that it Phillipians. But it promises us so much more. Peace. Something I and many others in this world seek. We give our requests to God and lay the situations before him and He gives us peace to understand and deal with those situations. How amazing is that. Something I will remember. :-) Or at least try to.

I have a busy week on my hands. Laundry to do, phone calls to make, cookies to bake, a cake to make, and packing and preparing for the tri down to San Diego and Alabama. I am not in want of things to do this week. That is for sure. But I am thankful that I am able to do the tasks at hand. And that I have a family and a husband that loves me.