And so it has begun...

What a crazy month or so it has been. So much has happened since I moved up here. I have been stretched and have even grown a little since being up here. I have good news to report that I think I got this housewife thing under control. Procrastinating and laziness are still ever present. And if you know of my procrastination skills you know the challenge I am up against. :-)

So far God has brought me through the initial move, getting the hosue altogether once the stuff from Alabama came, got some what settled into a church family, made it through 17 days of my husband being gone and enjoyed one wonderful week with my husband. I have finally managed to gain all my weight back that I had managed to loose between October and December. So that is awesome. I still have yet to find a new hobby. I have discovered that my hobby hole is not filled and I am in need of a new one. For 10+ years sports has been my hobby but it is now a new phase in my life and I ma not sure what to do with that new opening just yet. Cleaning is temporarily filling that spot, but my sister strongly believes I need a new hobby. And taking care of my husband and being there for him is a new life I am happily welcoming. :-)

This past week was the first whole week I have spent with Thomas since our honeymoon and even then it wasn't a whole week. It was so nice to have him around. It was an adjustment because I was use to having my own schedule while he was gone but an adjustment I was happy to make. :-)

I love my husband so very much. It is a feeling like none other. A feeling I can't even begin to describe. I love everything about him. Even when he is driving mw crazy that handsome face and cute smile just makes everything seem to disappear. I am one very blessed and very lucky girl. Something I want to hold on tight to and never let go. The greatest fear I have, like many and most all of wives, is loosing Thomas. When Thomas was in the SEAL program I shared with him about how I was scared to loose him. And he, with his no fear demeanor, told me that when his time was up his time was up. That could be from a bullet or just driving down the road and getting in a car accident. And that we had no control over how it happened but that he was in God's hand. And nothing would happen to him until God said so. And I could rest in God and know that he is watching over it all. And then he asked me not to be sad and wallow in my sorrow in his death but to rejoice because he is somewhere safe and happy. Waiting for me. Thomas and I see a little different when it comes to dealing with death. I think it's because I still see to much on the worldly side of it all. My husband loves adventure and danger. But he is brave and very courageous because of the God that lives inside of him. ANd it is a challenge and something I am seeking to have as well. The day Thomas is no longer in my life, there will be a huge whole that will never be filled again. But I am trying hard to make the most of every opportunity given to us and take it and cherish every minute of it. Not only with my husband but with my family and my friends. Like Thomas tells me often, "You only live once. Why not?". :-)

My favorite verse right now is Micah 6:8 "He has showed you, O man,what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God". I don't know why but in these words I have found comfort and peace. This is what the Lord requires of me act justly, love mercy and walk humbly with God. Challenging but not out of our grasp with God. What we have been given and all we have is because of the grace of God. And a merciful God he is.

I finally started running again. Thomas and I are getting back into working out again. We had a brief interruption because he was gone and I had some health issues that had to be sorted out. I am so out of shape but it is nice to know my body hasn't forgotten how to run and enjoy it. :-) Other than that I am still working out the job situation. A little frustrated there but I know I will get some things together that will work out. Just ding what I can and praying very hard I see what God has for me.

I am excited to see what God has in store for the month of March. I a going to enjoy every minute that my husband is here because they leave in April to go away for a little over a month. Getting us ready to what life is like when they are away on deployment :-) Hoping there are some sunny days in there to go exploring one weekend with Thomas in Seattle or up in the mountains. We shall see.

As for now I am going to get off my lazy bum, clean some dishes and get ready for the young adults group that is tonight.